I’m always worried about being annoying
Bothering someone
Being over bearing
Once I get revved up I’m on a roll
And then I become conscious of myself and it’s over
I bring it all back in
Become short
Abrupt in my answers and silence
From bitch to pussy
From excited to nervous
From loving to timid
I feel so strongly I stopped feeding them
So they would be too malnourished to play against me.
I don’t know what I’m doing
What is wrong with me?

Lord this me! The struggle of balance is so real.